force me to…

Kill me now he will not stop.
I can’t even think; it is all over.
Keep keep no silence.
No room for me
Just this all surreal life
Which never ends
Just gets worse and worse
Until you want to stare
Off into nothingness
Idle dazed
A practice in patience
Will I die before I recover
Or will I break and kill
Will I stand and sail
Will I stay and mourn
Then triumph eventually
When I realize it is never over
Annoyance peaked
The words you don’t want
To speak to those who
You wish not to hurt
But you have to?
We do not know.
All I can do is lean back
Make a gesture of displeasure
While I listen to titanic
I don’t want to talk about
Nothingness, unless it is the kind
I experience
No small talk, just big empty
Abyss, smoothly furnished
Tears hung in mid air
Laws of physics and nature
Do not apply to my fear
It will not cease, only grow
Am I just exhausted?
Or is my world falling apart
Or was it… never is?
How about I say it doesn’t matter
Anyway, nihilist to the core.
It is hard to be happy when you
Cannot smile anymore.